Every Woman's Dream...

Have you ever thought about your dreams as a young girl?

Doesn't every girl just absolutely dream of living a "Cinderella-type Fairy Tale"? I mean for as long as I can remember, all I ever wanted was to be a princess. I wanted a Prince Charming to sweep me off my feet and take me away from anything bad that I had ever faced.

What happened to that? Life as we know it. We become so jaded as we get older. We don't realize that there really isn't a "Happily Ever After", but more of an "Almost Happily Ever After." Somehow, we are constantly searching for that Happiness that we don't even know what it really consists of. Have you ever sat and said, I am entirely happy with every aspect of my life right now? Probably not. There is always something we want to perfect or get better. I think we are so busy focusing on that we forget all the things we do have take us to the "almost" level.

I won't lie. I am a mere 33 years old. I've hardly lived enough to have been through horrible things. I didn't endure slavery, segregation, or the holocaust. I am glad I didn't. I am way to kindhearted to watch others be hurt for no reason other than the color of their skin or religious choice. I haven't witnessed a war firsthand. Sure, our country is at war and has been at war, but I have not been there to see what it really consists of. My best knowledge of war is through movies like "The Patriot" or "Saving Private Ryan." Both extremely gruesome, tear jerkers for me.

Why am I writing this? Because I am happy. I've had my share of heartache. Some of which I don't wish to publicize, some of which, if you know me personally,you know have been painful.

I have a home. It doesn't have a picket fence and a garden, but it's a home, not just a house. I have healthy kids. They are not perfect and there are days that I wonder where they came from, but they are mine and I love every inch of their abstract personalities. I have my Prince Charming. He doesn't take away the bad, but we face it together, hand in hand and roll with the punches.

What more can a girl ask for?

Maybe I get all this because I know what it's like to be alone, to lose someone you love, to be with someone that doesn't stand by your side or even worse to be knocked off of your dream horse when you think you are capable to taking anything on.