Today I sit here typing this after probably what I would label as a "bad-week". Gianna had a stomach flu, Jr. has had a sore throat and on again off again fever, and now I feel horrid! All this of course, while John is away. I try not to complain when he calls. At the end of the day, he is working and not out partying. I will admit that I am slightly envious of his midday naps and quiet time. Shhh! He doesn't have to know. I am sure it would be the same on his end if the tables were turned.
I've also been affected by something in the news. Caylee Anthony's (http://www.insideedition.com/news.aspx?storyID=2455) body being found hurts me so deep. How could a mother do such a thing??? I am alone with my kids off and on for 6 months of the year. I won't say that times are not trying and things are always peachy, but geez, I would never even think. I guess what gets me the most is that I had held out hope that she had either given her away to someone or sold her. Not the perfect scenario either, but better than killing her. For Pete's sake, she could've given Caylee up to her mother. The next issue is that the body had been spotted back in August by the same person and Law Enforcement did nothing. They claimed to have checked the area and found nothing. What a crock?!? Has everyone just stopped caring??
Well, I find solace at night when I put my daughter down for bed. You see we have a radio in Gigi's room. WE have since she was born. She was a colicky baby and at times the constant music/background noise would help soothe her. We always have it on an easy-listening station. That easy listening station has the best host in the evening when I am putting Gianna down. Her name is Delilah(http://www.delilah.com/home/home.html). During the show people can call and make dedications. Dedications range from celebrating a long-awaited adoption to having lost the one you love. She is amazing. She calls herself the "Queen of Sappy Love Songs". She has a song for every moment that life throws at you. Last night, listening to people pour their hearts out on the radio made me realize that the world is not only filled with Casey Anthonys. There are actually good mothers and fathers out there and not all children are suffering. I was touched and I needed that. I don't know if Delilah plays in your area. If she doesn't, check out her site, she will touch you as well. Especially during these very trying times when we think there is not any good left in the world.
